kamikazechick06

Good evening all. This is my life as it stands. I still work for Tom Thumb, at the Starbucks. I work in Garland now. I am still not in school and it doesn't look like I'm going to be going back anytime soon. It turns out that there is a crapton of decay in my teeth that really needs to be fixed, ASAP. And since the dentist I want to see is out of network, I will be spending a lot of money out of pocket. Which mean's unless money falls from the sky, I can't go back to school. And last I checked, the weather doesn't call for money showers. Oh well. If I can get financial aid, maybe  I can go, but you know what, I don't think it's likely. Oh well. Mom isn't doing so well and I'm worried about her. Christopher failed this semester at school, and mom and dad aren't willing to send him back. Well mom is but dad doesn't think it's worth the money. Oh well. 
Umm work. Hmm. Work is not easy. I work with idiots. Well some of them are idiots. My manager is having a hard time right now and so things are slipping in the kiosk. There's not much I can do about it but suffer through it.
That's all for now.

So my parents have given an ultimatum: Move back home or be disowned. I have chosen to be disowned. I cannot forsee any happiness or anything good at all coming from my moving back home. I believe I can make it on my own. It will be a hard year ahead of me, but I have my friends and my new family to help me through it; for that I'm glad. I am worried that no one will tell me if my mother dies after I have left. I hope they will, but I will have no guarantee.

I really don't have much more to say other than that I beg your patience with what I am sure will be a very bitchy and tired Sarah. I will get through this and when I do, I will be a better person(I hope).

~KCM~

I am in so much trouble. I am currently overdrawn $214 at the bank. I have no idea what I'm going to do about it. My first paycheck isn't even going to leave a dent! And soon I will have rent payments and I have to pay for school in July, and then I will have to start paying for gas and insurance too. I need more hours at work. With my current work schedule(which had better change or I am gonna be pissed) I will make $172 before taxes with this week and next weeks hours.... I doubt that will help much.
I can't really ask my parents, though since they know about the situation, they are probably going to help anyway. Dad is stressed out enough and Mom just got fired and so started smoking again. My brother is still being an ass so that is also putting stress on the family. We aren't going to last the summer, I just know it. Well it will give me a good excuse to move out, though again, money issues! Money sucks.
Enough for this entry before I cry! Or punch a hole in something.
~KCM~

*Written June 16th*


It's going kind of ok. There are things that need dealing with, but I can get over those things, I think. I know that some of the things will be really difficult and others may not be. My past is kinda my biggest problem right now. The issue I'm having with some guys in my life are big, but I am not worried about dealing with them.

I'm going to Austn next weekend to celebrate my friend's 21st birthday, so that should be fun. I have my job this week and I will be learning more so gotta try and absorb it all.

New job, got back into school, and new boyfriend. Things are going pretty ok.

~KCM~

*Written June 21st*

 So now I am "the she-devil" to most of the kids in my driving school. Totally don't know why; all I was wearing was a Tripp skirt, a fishnet top under a white top that has black dragons and black flames. Oh and I was wearing my pentacle. So yeah, NO idea why I'm the she-devil .

So I hate Paige. She is loud, obnoxious, and is in essence a bitch and not the good kind. She is critical, bossy, disrespectful, and blatently disregards every rule I can think of. I feel a bit bad about talking about her, but if I don't vent, I will explode. She is a rich kid who gets almost everything she wants from her parents and expects to get EVERYTHING she wants from everyone else. She had no regard for authority of any kind. I'm surprised Linus(our driving school teacher) hasn't kicked her out yet, especially after she called him the "n" word(I refuse to use that word; it speads hate). Yeah, to tell you the truth, he should have kicked out half of the kids out by now for breaking one rule or another at least twenty times.They are just ridiculous. I hate it here.

Gotta stop that rant. So yeah, my boyfriend Tim is totally awesome. He is always worrying about me, though not to the point of annoyance. His is also good to his friends and his family. He really does make me happy (in more ways than one ). I am headed down to Austin with him and some of our friends for our mutual friend Mason's 21st birthday. Also moving in with him and our friends Matt and Ryan sometime in July. My parents aren't pleased I'm moving out. Mom is the only one who knows about my plan and she doesn't believe I'm serious about it. She doesn't like the idea and will be pissed when she finds out I have decided to do it anyway.

Anyway more later my dears.

~KCM~